Why Me?

I have "why me" moments all the time. Oftentimes I find my self crying at random things that somehow feel related to my situation and make me think "why me!" all over again. Like at our church service for Ash Wednesday, our pastor was talking about grief and trying to wash it away with God's hope... just the mention of having to deal with this grief and trying to regain my sense of hope again (not to mention control!) just made me well up with tears. It's such an awful feeling to not have a sense of hope, or a sense of control over this part of my life.