There are some days since I was diagnosed with POF and MTS that I feel like I've actually lost a baby. It doesn't make sense certainly because I haven't, and I feel like a terrible person because of all the women from various groups I'm in that have actually gone through miscarriages for real. I often feel like I'm the only person going through this sense of loss because most people I know have at least attempted to get pregnant. I've known about POF since before I was married so we didn't even try to conceive.
It's the opportunity I'm sure that is causing this feeling of loss, but I need some way with how to cope with this feeling. Some books that I have read have suggested to have some sort of ceremony or ritual for the baby that was a possibility, rather than a reality. We discussed writing letters to this "baby" that we'll never get to have and then planting a tree, or some other type of plant around which we would put our letters. A way to help cope with the loss of something we never had the chance to get.
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