I hate the way that it makes me feel: like I wish other people would find getting pregnant at least a little bit of a difficulty. Like, "oops! we're pregnant", should definitely make me feel happy for the other people, but instead I just feel sick to my stomach. It's an awful feeling.
One other person I know had some trouble getting pregnant the first time, not a lot, but she had to use clomid. The second one was an oops, we're pregnant without trying, but I was super happy for her because the first time was at least a little bit trying. And I have another friend who was worried because of her age that she would have a hard time getting pregnant, but she didn't and I was happy for her.
Maybe it's more along the lines of other people who are less considerate of my feelings that makes me feel like I hate them for being pregnant, rather than the lack of difficulty. For example, my sister-in-law made an effort of showing/telling us that she knew her being pregnant might be hard for me. I guess it is just unfortunate that some other people suck at being considerate.
Anyway, I don't like feeling sick to my stomach, I wish that I didn't even have to think about this at all, that I could be happy for other people regardless of the circumstances, that there wouldn't be a need to be considerate. I know I've said it a thousand and one times but... It's just not fair. Ugh.
On a happier note, no matter how much life sucks in any other arena right now ... I'M AT THE BEACH!! :)
I hear you on this one. Anytime I hear about an accidental pregnancy or getting knocked up on like the first try, it makes me cringe. These are the people too that bitch about almost everything related to being pregnant. They don't realize how good they have it. Having children is not a given, it's a gift!
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